Thursday, February 18, 2010

●共鳴●

看到了某人的一篇文章,感覺蛮對的。當分手時, 我們都會想問, 為什麼要分手?你有沒有愛過我?我做錯了什麼?之類的問題。

我在想,就算問了後,能改變到什麼呢?既然你有這樣的念頭,表示這段感情已有了瑕疵。

對,缺陷也有缺陷的美。但,往往人們還是比較嚮往完美,美麗的。無論如何挽救,有瑕疵就是代表缺陷,永遠無法在讓他完美起來就如錫箔,鄒了,無論你如何烫平它,都無法像開始般無鄒折。

曾經我以為我能像從前般,與你快樂了的生活。但,始終瑕疵了的愛情,往往無法像以往一樣。而我們這一段感情也顯得特別脆弱,一擊就破。

‘是你自己花心就說,’

的確,花心的我不容易掌控。要讓我停止粘花惹草,最簡單就是待在我身旁。我害怕孤獨,害怕寂寞。ㄦ時的我特別孤僻,導致有輕微的自閉現象。我不想回到ㄦ時的我,不想再將自己封鎖起來。

不愛了

連回憶

都是負荷

對這一句,我感覺好像‘Dejavu’(幻覺記憶)般,有很大的共鳴。當我不愛了,連說話都顯得特別沒耐心。

有時我很內疚,很慚愧。在感情世界裡,我永遠都將事情搞到一塌糊塗,亂七八糟。往往我都無法將事情處理妥當,一而再,再而三的傷害一個又一個。特別是在遠方的她。我知道無論我說什麼也只是藉口,不期待她的原諒,只希望她過的好。

曾經的過去,現在的回億。我不會嚮往它,只會從中學習,為未來的我和你而努力。

Thursday, November 12, 2009

本地道路行录



想必很多人在驾驶上都有遇到一些让你PEK CHEK到一种地步的驾驶人士吧?


由于本人性情还蛮暴躁的,加上驾驶技术还蛮“狼死”的,所以如果在路上遇上那些TSK(陀衰家,听988学的),我还真想直接给他奶奶的撞过去。


其实如果你们有仔细观察,往往这些TSK来来去去都是那几类人。

1. 马来女我不是种族或性别歧视,可是她们真的是让人PEK CHEK到一种让我无法以言语来形容我的愤怒。就以我近期还能搜索的记忆来打个比方: 在一个堵车的道路上,如果你想吃去另一条lane,当然会先signal,然后等待机会吃过去。我就打了signal后,然后看有空位就吃过去右边lane。当我要吃过去时,右边lane的马来女赶快踏进油门想不让我过,可是我已经出了一半。他看自己过不到,就开始horn我了。她奶奶的,是盲的?看不到我打signal吗?Horn个屁阿?那么喜欢horn干么不回家对着自己孩子horn饱它。真是有够dulan,当时真想reverse给她撞过去,然后告给她死。

2. Auntie – 我想这个大多的人都有遇过吧?我真不知道她们是想省油或是想确保安全,她们驾车可以慢到一种程度。20kps? 40kps? 不是吧有必要那么慢吗?在大马路上就算了,你要慢慢驾,就散到旁边去。可是如果在单行道上,您可不可以快少少,为您后面的车辆着想嘛想越过她可是反方向又有车辆,真的是欲哭无泪

3. 印度人车改装到已不知是什么车不再说,他们的signal是坏了不还是要省电?要吃过人家可以先signal吗?如果我不让是不是给我撞过去呢?想吃左就左,右就右,整条路你奶奶的?就算有signal都好,吃过来了才signal有屁用么?真的危险到极点!


*以上并不代表所有有关类型的人,只是部分*


有时候我会想,如果我车可以再硬一点,没有法律限制,没有后顾之忧,我还管他奶奶的给他狠狠撞过去!


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Unexpected Guest


Today 8th of September, went movie with ImmImm they all as she has free tickets again. ^^ Of course this we have to thx to Alfred, THX ALFRED for the tix!!

The movie overall was not bad la, may be I wasn't in the mood to laugh, for some reasons(which I don't even know the reason,lol*PMS?*)...

After the movie ends, we met an unexpected guest at the entrance:梁智强,Jack Neo, one the director & actor of the movie. I guess he was there to survey the audiences' respond on the movie. ImmImm was so excite at the moment. She actually get his autograph inside the cinema already. Now since the movie is finish, Wurn plans to approach him to take a photo with him. We wait & wait & wait cause Mr John Neo was busy chatting with the crew/workers or whoever it is. There come Alfred help us bump into him & request for the photo section. N wee~All of us manage to take photo with him~ Was kinda...bit excited la,hahaa...Afterall first time take pic with celebrity mer. We also saw 黎明姨 passing trough. Actually I want to take pic with her more, but since she was like on the way back, better don't disturb the elderly 黎明姨 back home rest early. Really respect her ^^. Saw few local celeb but don't even know their names,lol...

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Appreciate

Life wasn't any good at all this year. Not to say is totally chaos, but still wasn't good enough. Ya' know, human demand for more, never satisfy...I'm those kind who never know when to satisfy, and this is where I loss a lot due to it.

I had a lot of good opportunity, in lots of aspect, but what I'm referring to here is relationship. I had few good person I can really be together with for very very long time. And what I have done, ending up with nothing. Hereby I have to apologize to GCH... he put his trust on me, but once again I have failed him. If weren't due to our bad temper, we could really make a perfect couple. As for LHS, really...God is like playing a hide and seek game between us, argh...

Is not like I'm saying I'm regretting of all the decision I made, after all this is the path I have choose. I bare the responsibility and make no excuse for myself.

I really do not know what I really want. I do not know what love really is. Perhaps I should really learn to appreciate before anything else. For now, perhaps what I need is a simply love, simple lifestyle, anything extra could drive me crazy...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

爱一个人好难...

从前有只猪,家庭围绕着不平凡的背景,但由于终日体弱多病,所以家人都特别呵护照顾他。一次机缘巧合下,猪猪认识了一只莫名的鱼儿。鱼儿跟猪猪在不知不觉中产生了情愫。久而久之,它们破天荒地走在一起了。鱼儿跟猪猪很开心的能得到这缘分的邂逅,彼此都很珍惜对方。对鱼儿来说,虽然跟猪猪是不同种类的生物,但感情的事终究难解,以往虽然都跟同类的鱼交往,但都没有好结果。当鱼儿真要处于绝望的时刻,它遇到了猪猪,猪猪再一次给于鱼儿一线对爱情的希望。所以鱼儿很珍惜这份感情


然而不幸的事终究还是发生了猪猪病情突然发作,面对着父母家人,猪猪觉得应该给家人一个交待,希望家人能接受,因为猪猪也很爱着鱼儿但事情永远都不会像童话故事般的开花结果,猪猪的家人极力反对猪猪跟鱼儿交往,甚至断绝猪猪对外的联络。猪猪的家人还严重警告,威胁鱼儿不得再和猪猪有任何联络,否则将祸连家人猪猪的家人都诬赖鱼儿带坏猪猪,甚至还弄到猪猪病发。猪家人说,“你们是不同类的生物,根本不可能在一起,不要再来骚扰它!”猪家人根本没有给鱼儿任何辩护的余地,直接被猪家人判入十八层地狱永不翻身


鱼儿对于事情的发生很无奈,更无助,终日垂头丧气,一来担心猪猪病情,二来感到彷徨无助鱼儿知道这件事情根本已无从选择,也只能黯然接受事实过了几天,猪猪终于联络上鱼儿来解释,猪猪在爱情和家人间选择了后者,它不想家人伤心。也对,始终父母养育之恩比任何恩惠还来得重要。鱼儿也只能默默的祝福它


有位友人对鱼儿说,“你应该为它感到骄傲,这是它选择的道路,虽然辛苦,可是对它来说是值得的,父母的债是永远都换不清的”。听完了友人的话,鱼儿也想通了许多,不再执著了,虽然心痛是难免的,但至少鱼儿明白父母的笑容,就是猪猪的笑容。鱼儿不想那么自私占有猪猪,想到猪猪的笑容,鱼儿自自然然的也要振作起来,不让其它人失望,也不要让在远方的猪猪担心,内疚。


鱼儿在这学会了一点,“爱一个人并不一定要拥有他才叫幸福,得到了也并不代表绝对最重要是对方健健康康开开心心的过日子还比其它东西来得重要

Monday, December 15, 2008

Ban!!

Is been a very very long time since I last went to Murni, and yesterday I happened to hang out there for supper with friends.

Guess what, there weren't as much customers as last time. As I was wondering, I realize the workers around had totally changed to different peoples, even the boss, hmmm.... We sat down and wanted to order our meal, but eventually none of the workers around seems to serve us. As we waving hand, making noise to attract them to come to serve us, but none of them seems to bother. Either they are watching tv, sms+ing or chit chatting with each other... WTF!! Are gonna do business or what? After like 10 minutes of meaningless hand waving, Brian beh tahan and go ask them come over directly...

After finish the meals, when wanna pay the bill, same thing happen again. Damn it, are they working or what? Last time the boss and his wife were around things wasn't like that, now?? Damn, gonna ban this place FOREVER!!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

纳闷中...

啊...已经在家待业都有整两个月了,再找不到工作我可就死了...
年尾了,要找工也不是间易事,大多公司都close account了,都不请人...
现在只好拜托那些job agent来找工作了,随便找份稳定的工先吧,有钱最重要!!

*Say yes to mOo~*