Appreciate

Life wasn't any good at all this year. Not to say is totally chaos, but still wasn't good enough. Ya' know, human demand for more, never satisfy...I'm those kind who never know when to satisfy, and this is where I loss a lot due to it.

I had a lot of good opportunity, in lots of aspect, but what I'm referring to here is relationship. I had few good person I can really be together with for very very long time. And what I have done, ending up with nothing. Hereby I have to apologize to GCH... he put his trust on me, but once again I have failed him. If weren't due to our bad temper, we could really make a perfect couple. As for LHS, really...God is like playing a hide and seek game between us, argh...

Is not like I'm saying I'm regretting of all the decision I made, after all this is the path I have choose. I bare the responsibility and make no excuse for myself.

I really do not know what I really want. I do not know what love really is. Perhaps I should really learn to appreciate before anything else. For now, perhaps what I need is a simply love, simple lifestyle, anything extra could drive me crazy...